training

and yes, it's back to training. and YES, my long awaited 2 weeks break is here! but still, will be spending bulk of the time concentrating on the report writing. sian. good thing is, report writing is own time own target thingy. lol

i've got many things to look forward to! damn excited and hope things will pretty much turn out well for me! whoo!

5th-7th Oct => chalet. =))
3rd-4th Nov => Singapore River Regatta. =))
14th Nov => Miss-lil-princess's birthday. =)))
28th Nov =>NS medical checkup. =()
2nd Dec => Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon Run 2007. =)))
25th Dec => CHRISTMAS! =))

excitable. exciting. excited!

and SPC, ready and reeeach.

I'm all about you

i'm all about you baby.

good day it was yesterday! napha cleared to be exact. i'm kinda glad and satisfied that it's over and with good results. couldn't hit my initial target of full marks for every stations. instead, got only 27 out of 30 points. all full marks except my 2.4run and standing broad jump. but still, gold for napha!

good day it was yesterday too. dinner and jurong point. something special. =))

simple is perfection.

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chao geng and gei siao. ha!

everything is perfectly good for me, if you guys are rather curious bout my life. served time at this restaurant bar recommended by my queen of chao geng over at dempsey hill last sat with good pay but little-work-done job. nice ambience, good alfresco nua-ing session if you were to visit Angle's Share. they have their own wine cellar and dozens of samsung lcd tv in their indoor dining area. oh boy, how i wished one of em' is mine. ha!

town the next day, entertained by chuck and larry, desserts at meastro-bistro(the food, place, servers kinda sucked) and met up with some friends and slack til 3am at their place. chao geng spend the night with me, watching discovery channel til morning before diving into our deep sleeps. thus explaining our absence in my VPP in sch, and her first day of back-to-a-new-semester class. ha! had steamboat or should i say yong tau hu feast at a friend's place before heading home round midnight.

enjoying life. happening lives! chalet, genting, thailand. whoo. happening, but not much financing. lol.

if the guards of departures is lurking around us, wanting to take us away, there's no running away from it. why not just submit to it as we're slaves of life. one note to take, walk this journey well. cuz that's what matters most. leave a trail of footprints, so that others who're still in this road could say "thanks for the memories".

=))

try forcing me to say "i love you" to you again!

5th oct

chalet on 5th oct!

a very very very last min decision made last night. and it's plan execution today!

fun fun fun!

simple night. =)

<3

=))

20th

On the 14 Sept 2007 (Fri) at about 9:45am, a friend, Liu Xia (Alex) met with an accident. The accident took place at the junction of Bukit Batok Street 25 and Bukit Batok Ave 6. The motorbike that he was riding on, a Honda CB400 Blue, FT2072, was hit by a silver car driven by a lady of 40 years old. The lady driver was turning right into Bukit Batok Ave 2 and the friend was travelling straight (right of way). Somehow or rather, we didn't know why this lady driver didn't see this oncoming bike and knocked him down. He was just another junction away before reaching home. The impact of this crash caused the friend to fly a distant, and in the process, smashing his helmet. he was sent to hospital but unfortunately, he couldn't make it. He died of skull fracture and internal bleeding on 15 sept 2007 at 1030hrs. Both local chinese newspaper have published reports on this accident on the 15 sept. He is only 21 years in age, having just celebrated his 21st birthday in august. He is still so young and have yet to really see the entire world. And now, he's leaving us just like that. He leaves behind his aged parents, elder brother, elder sister, relatives and beloved friends. A life is lost and nothing else matters anymore. Even if a million bucks is given in compensation, nothing will ever make this being alive again. Nothing will ever bring back a son to his parents, a buddy to his friends. Nothing will heal the heartache and sufferings that his parents and friends are going through. All we want is the facts and then we can have a proper closure on this unfortunate and heartbreaking event. We're appealing to members of the public, who have witness the accident to come forward and provide information regarding the accident. Anyone with information, please approach the police or call them at 1800-547-1818.

life is fragile. treasure the ppl around you. life is unpredictable. if death is to strike upon us, there's no running away from it. perhaps we can cheat death once, or maybe twice. we can never cheat death as and when we like it. no one would seek death. it's always death seeking to take us away. 2 events happened this year regarding deaths on bike. i felt that this is not a case where we can escape from it. when our time is up, it's up. what we can do is to treasure the ppl around us. do not wait til the passing away of a beloved before you even realised the value of that beloved in you.

it's kinda sad actually. many dreams unfulfilled, many sights unseen. many things undone, many words unsaid. leaving just like that. so, take this chance to express your love for the ppl around you. your friends, family, partners. everyone. always be the kind of person you ought to be. thus' avoiding the term "too late to regret".

anyway, it's nice meeting up old friends. talked about the past that we all shared in sec sch, laughed alot about it. current progress, future plans. a little gossip, a little sharing. and after so many years, i didn't expect that my decisions still do affect the past. it's been hanging around me for so long. this guilt, have strained the friendship for a very long time. i suppose i'm just gonna let it be. since it's been so long, why not just let it be, right? =))

i'm sorry baby, if i made you feel that i'm trying to avoid this relationship. but that wasn't what i meant in the first place. it was just a little fooling with friends on the game of "for you to know and for you to find out". i wanted to tell them the truth only when they probe further but they didn't.

i'm still thankful and proud to have you. where can i find such a very understanding girl? it must've been tough for you. cuz of my very tight schedules and sleepy days. busy with training, work, VPP. 3days of training per week. 2 nights of overnight shift per week. 5 days of project days that i need to attend per week. the time i can take out for us is only this little. and never once did you complain about me not spending enough time for you. never once did you even complain that i spend time with you with much tiredness in my eyes and soul. it's been weeks we last went out to play. i'm so sorry. but i promise that i will do so when everything is pretty much settled and over with.

there are times i missed you so much that i felt like ......

sava sprints international 3

months of training, and the race is here and finally over. how did we fare? so here's it. =))

we managed to qualify for 500m and 200m Men's and Woman's Plate Finals. we ranked 4th in the 500m Mixed Grand Finals, 4th in the 200m Men's Grand Finals.

tho there isn't any medals or plates won this time round, i would say that at least, the team did well. in all our heats, semis, and finals, we were up against strong teams like NTU, NUS, RP, Philippines National Team, Mountbatten CSC. those were the big boys with many years of experience under their belt. for a team like SPC with the majority of us still schooling (and not yet completed our NS for a matter of fact), getting such results is good enough.

what surprises me most is that we were only about a second behind NTU in our 200m Men's heats clinching 2nd placing. not only that, we manage to beat Ngee Ann Alumni in our Men's 500m heats as well. Also not forgetting being able to beat some of the RP and SP teams. we were only a mere micro-seconds behind Mountbatten CSC in the 200m Men's Grand Finals. as well as beating NTU and SP in the grand finals. and if you didn't know, Mountbatten CSC is damn good. with most of their paddlers in the national team. for SPC to achieve such astonishing results, perhaps it is quite good enough. and mind you, this in an international race. with the Philippines National team being invited to race along side with us. Philippines took us with awe when they raced against their every competitors. beating other boats and clinching 1st placing in heats and semis by finishing the race ahead of the others about 1-2 boats length. that's how damn fast they are.


deep down, the hunger of winning is strong. but perhaps in terms of winning at least a medal in the men's 200m, it takes a little of luck to overcome that micro-second difference in timing. we used to laugh about the previous race where the SPC men's team won the plate finals ahead of NUS with a difference of 2 micro-seconds as well. it's kinda sad that it actually happened to us yesterday. but alas, it's an experience for the entire team. and perhaps it is in this race where we will take our experience into the upcoming river regatta on nov 3rd.

overall, a good race. with many good sandwiches, macaronis, pizzas, mac, drinks and beers. not forgetting the company and the bonding we all shared. i realised that we all trained as one, got screwed by our coach as one, cheered as one, fight for our placings as one, defeat others and got defeated as one, laughed and encouraged as one. although i do not agree about some of the stuffs that happened yesterday, but i've come to terms with it that maybe, perhaps they do really have a reason behind it. afterall, it is for the good of the team. =))

SPC! READY AND REEEACH! WHOOSH!

a very long and tiring weekend for me. ha! but owells, i'm a little free in time this week. hahas.

i received an sms last night saying that life is unfair. i guess perhaps life is fair. maybe it's just that we don't feel it that way. think about the times when things do go according to your plan. maybe it isn't right to weigh between the both. but well, do we say that life is unfair to us when things go well for us? no right. comments, rumours, gossips should be pushed aside. if we take them to heart, it's gonna affect us ultimately. not the ones who say it freely. i stumbled upon this on a fellow friend's nick. it says "talk is cheap because supply exceeds demand". how true my friend. so just ignore them.

i miss junk foooooooooooood.

14th

just got back from sending little girl home. it's the 14th. a simple day that i simply spent on sleeping. i should've known. today can be a much more meaningful day. but..

race tmr. as we submit ourselves to the spirit of the dragon, may the dragon bless us with bags of medals. SPC! ready and reeeach!

i knew this would happen one day. just didn't expect it to be so soon. why am i feeling in such a way. it sucks. perhaps, not having free time could be a good thing. i wouldn't think of things like this. or even make a big fucking deal out of it.

napha results improved. tho still not to my expectation.
2.4km - 10:54mins (my target - 10:15)
pull ups- 16 (my target - 20)
sit ups- 49 (my target - 55)
shuttle run - 10.93s (my target - 10.5s)
standing broad jump - 215cm (my target - 220cm)
sit and reach - 36cm (my target - 45cm)

i thought i can stretch really well. but why can't i do well in my sit and reach?

results out. i could've done better. expected at least an A in my BEI. turns out to be a B instead. GPA for this sem is 3. cumulative average GPA thus' far remains at 3 as well. with a GPA of 3, how to go uni? see, everything is screwed.

i laid and stared at my clock to finish a one minute cycle. and i allowed pain to consume the better of me inside. afterwhich i said, that's enough.

i got slapped by a simple revelation lately. that is, to stop neglecting my projects. not neglecting to be exact. i do think about my project every now and then. all the planning, the dreading.lol. but i felt maybe i could do better. and i should do better. that is why, i so feel like quitting my night job so that i can have enough sleep to go to school for my project. any job offers to intro? ha!

anyway, my project's professor from NTU made a surprise visit yesterday. we were totally unprepared at all. thank goodness that he's satisfied at what we have produced thus far. speaking of which, this project kinda made me realised the importance of optics and its applications. and the amount of revenue that this area can generate. however, it is still a very tedious subject to look into. especially when we don't get enough funding from our own school. so much so that we need to use their industrial-sponsored funds. ha!

been rather busy lately. was thinking of cutting down on one of them so that i'd have enough time for myself and other stuffs. definately not on baby, tho she suggested it so freely yesterday. ha!

next up, sava this sat and sun. napha at the end of the month. and i'm still deciding on the standard chartered run thingy.

too many things on my mind and too many things that i need to attend to. too much that i got no time to think about life. ha!

til then, see ya!

the ninth

new generation love. what has love come to these days? when the rare sights of true love surfaced itself, it brings tears to the eyes. i guess like all other things or issues, it mutates over time. with every second ticking, everything is changing. love is strong. love is comforting. love brings out the weakness in us. love proves the reliance that everyone needs in his/her life. a rare sight of love between a father and daughter almost moved me to tears. sacrificial love. giving up everything for the one you cared and loved so much for. repaying the gratitude. i find that it's these simple things that we all do, do make the one you cared so much for understand the love you have for him/her.

it was only a simple 80th birthday celebration for mum's friend. his daughter took the initiative to invite his friends at some restaurant. took time off from her rather busy schedule to do up presentation slides. as she present the slides to the about 150 guest and shared with us about the life of her beloved father, her voice shivered, with the occasional stutter, and definately the tears. sacrificial love between the 2 of them. some guest teared as well. even more teared when the daughter sang a song to her father in the eyes of the entire congregation. that's love.

i asked myself, what is today's love like? many loves i've seen. it's the first that such love actually moved me.

15-16sept 2007; upper seletar reservoir. catch Singapore Paddles Club bag all titles.

anyway, a fellow team mate suggested that i should sign up for the Standard Chartered marathon run. the distance? a big and long 42km. i said, crazy. i don't even have the stamina for 2.4km. let alone 42km. he said:" it isn't about winning. it's about completing. it's about the experience. and i'm sure you can complete it if you set your mind on it."

his words motivated me. i don't mind joining if there's a running buddy following me to. the thing is, registration fee is $75. money is the problem...

i thought i have things to blog about. but i kinda forgot some of the rest. nvm. that's it for today.

baby, i still believe...

no more dog for me.

photos

time for some photos. i'm pretty bored actually. am waiting for time to pass so i could go fetch my little girl from work.

this is the amount of durians we ate that night at malaysia. that's alot of durians! but nice. =))

look at the size of it. damn big la. lol

anyway, 9 of us went up to JB. i forgot to take pics of our huge meal. we ordered 2 different types of crabs, crayfish, 2 plates of fried oysters, kang kong, 2 plates of stingray, pork ribs, beggar chicken and one more i forgot. lol. plus sugar canes for everyone. dinner expenditure? RM300 shared among 9 ppl. damn fun damn fun. oh ya, the durians cost RM80.

dinner the night before malaysia trip. some 7th month dinner at batok.

hahas. the boy on the left got drunk that night. lol. mr xiang kang.

oh ya, not forgetting my trip to asia pacific breweries. was totally shag that day. cuz i worked on the previous night, went sch after work in the morning then went home to sleep for like 2 hrs before going back to sch to go APB. took a short tour and after that, tiger time! hahas. had tiger beer for starters, erlinger light, baron strong brew and heineken. the baron strong brew really took me down. it was crazy man. end up, my face as red as apples.

shi han suggested taking this. 2 crazy ass with damn red faces.

and our debut at the toilet. ha! i'm the reddest among all! haha!

after which, went to meet my pretty little thing to go over to bugis to change some stuffs. head was heavy and all. ha. mario called and he met us at town. wanted sushi initially. but too late for it. had dinner with raymond, yi wen and shirley instead. so sorry mario! but i guess you had fun and didn't have any problems with clicking with the group right? ha.

i want a new job soon. a job that doesn't need night shifts. this tiredness is killing.

oh oh! my dog's coming in tmr! a white maltese. i can't wait. whee!! any nice names to suggest? a male white maltese. =P

thanks for the reassurance last night baby. you're all i ever i need in this lifetime. our journey is gonna be long, but i'm sure we will stick to each other as long as the clock continues ticking. we may be busy with our own stuffs, but it is during those times that we can meet that we really treasure it. those small and simple meet ups, those short phone calls. i love it. not forgetting our pre-planned trips, our many places that we wanna go. and for you, i'll search the world over and walk a million miles just to get to you. =)) boy misses girl so much. =))

napha

day 1 of napha training. let's see how did i fare.

shuttle run- 9:95s
pull ups- 13
sit ups- 50
sit and reach - 36cm
standing broad jump- 225cm
2.4km - 11:14mins

good or bad? for you to decide. personally, not very good. especially the 2.4 run. next week, let's see how i'll fare in it.

i have loads of photos to upload, in which, i didn't have the time to do so. will do so when the time dimension decides to donate some to me.

had a simple dinner with rong, mario, yi wen, raymond and shirley tho. simple it is, chatter boxes we are. they're all nice ppl. =)

race race race. following you own passion is much worth than going after that seems-so-short-term addiction. i need a reality check. i've been feeling that reality itself is poking fun at me. i tried believing that the imagination is running too wild. perhaps at this point of time, i'm not in any position to decide for myself. i should not mix confusion into solutions. the guessing game ain't as fun as monopoly. or cluedo for that matter. speaking of which, it reminds me of the game, risk. every decision comes with a certain degree of risk. but like i said, i can't seems to grab hold of my chances. not even the percentages of it.

how sad for me.

looking on the bright side, a dog is a man's best friend! my long awaited companion might be here anytime soon. it's when perhaps, i'll start abandoning things around me, for it. ha! just kidding!

life. a game or a journey? oh my my my.

hello!

i can't help but ask myself this question the entire of yesterday. am i doing enough to make this a better one for us both? is she feeling happy and blissful in this? what more can i do to make it better?

as usual, i couldn't came up with any answers. what more can i say? hmm.

i came across this article about suicide in the papers. there's a thousand reasons why ppl resort to suicide. 2 types of suicide there is. suicidal thoughts, which is killing the mental state of a person and might lead to the real physical suicide. and suicide as in the real suicide. perhaps one day, i'll have suicidal thoughts since ppl around me says that i'm a big thinker. hahas!

i'm so bored!

til then! see ya!

i love your hugs baby!