deal or no deal

this is what i wanna do, at least for now. who knows, it might carry on till my end of age?

i so wanted to give myself 10 days. to shut myself, and after this 10 days, pretend that nothing had taken place. but a signal to my cell, kinda tells me that i do not have the capacity to bring it forward.

it might be weird, it might be strange. but i ask myself, why even bother? it's mine. not theirs. why should i bother bout what these ppl might say?

is it worth, for this 10 days?

i just need a sign. a signal fire to tell me i'm right. to tell me that this is the one. emotions and passion is 2 different thing. emotions will fade. passion don't. cuz passion, comes with the willingness to commit. what am i? what are you?

i so want to know.

training cancel tmr. just nice, the long-awaited bao-today tmr is here.

my sis birthday tmr. with a simple ice cream cake, and a couple of psp games and simpsons on it, for her to play with, and watch at. happy birthday. =))

"don't play with fire", my best buddies said. hahas.

random

just some random reminiscing.

how?

if you don't convince, you'll confuse.

strive to convince, don't confuse.

you know what you want, so go get it. time might let you accomplish it. but are you sure this is what you want, spencer? what about the mistakes you've made. how are you gonna live with it? to some, a simple sorry can work out. to some, it needs some patching up of stuffs. and you know it well that, if this is the route you wanna take, you might just lose everything overnight.

what is it that you need?
what is it that you want?

and today, my tomorrow, and my many other tomorrows, i'll just be playing with the guessing game. hope it'll be more than just a game.

this gravity, is pulling me down, and deeper. oh shit, i forgot. how am i suppose to get myself out?

damn.

i've been rather busy with projects testings and report during my weekdays. i finally did submit the report, which i REALLY heave a sigh of relief. not forgetting the preparation of my our presentation slides. we're given 10mins each for our presentation but we got a total of bout 90 plus slides? how to present 30+ pages in 10mins?

so, it is unavoidable that i really wanna do the things that i wanna do on my weekends. no touching of books, reports, slides, research etc. i didn't even think about it. lol. fri night, suppose to gym after sch. but decided to work instead. finished at the next morning about 8 before heading home to get my stuffs, then to training. we joined another club, which is more competitively tougher and stronger in terms of training regiment and its reputation. to my surprise, most were or am in ngee ann, while one or two is from RP or ITE. it rained heavily. and we trained under the heavy rain.

after training, went ps. after much consideration, i've decided to get a psp instead. which i did. i'm now officially broke, which means, i'll cut less on my outings and expenditures. maybe mahjong as well. i want to look for a second job on my weekdays. hmm... yi long came over to my place soon after, and after he left, i went to prepare to go out. went vivo, bought tickets for invisible target using the movie tix that mum gave me. walked around, went toy's r us. spend almost an hour in there. in this hour, we turned into kids. playing around with different toys, playing pranks. dinner after that, had hokkien mee at food republic. then movie, then mahjong.

reached home this morning at 6, slept til 11 which i was late for my appointment. jason's dad pick up and off we went for race. i didn't expect them to put me into the competing team, but they did. we came in second. =))

and now i'm back! i didn't sleep for 48 hours. while mahjong last night, mum called and scolded me. for not sleeping. c'mon, i don't want to waste my weekends on sleep! lol. i was damn busy with proj on my weekdays la.

some random pics taken recently.

try peeling prawns using a spoon and a chopsticks! it's hell tough but i learnt it last night. lol

hi, my name is princess spency.

my favourite home theatre system. lol. my lcd tv, speakers, and my dvd slot! hahas.

tell me if it's real. cuz i don't want it to stop.

Dots: named as each tile consists of a number of circles. Each circle is said to represent copper (銅, tóng) coins with a square hole in the middle.



Bamboos: named as each tile (except the 1 Bamboo) consists of a number of bamboo sticks. Each stick is said to represent a string (索, sǔo) that holds a hundred coins. Note that 1 Bamboo is an exception. It has a bird sitting on a Bamboo. This is a belief that players cannot draw or add bamboo sticks to 1 Bamboo to change the tile to some other Bamboo.


Characters: named as each tile
represents ten thousand (萬, wàn) coins, or one hundred strings of one hundred coins.


Wind tiles: East (東, dōng), South (南, nán), West (西, xī), and North (北, běi).


Dragon tiles: red, green, and white. The term dragon tile is a western convention introduced by Joseph Park Babcock in his 1920 book introducing Mahjong to America. Originally, these tiles are said to have something to do with the Chinese Imperial Examination. The red tile ("中"榜, zhōngbǎng) means you pass the examination and thus will be appointed a government official. The green tile ("發"財, fācái literally, "Get Rich") means, consequently you will become financially well off. The white tile (白版，"bái bǎn", literally "White Tile") means that because a person is doing well they should act like a good, incorrupt official. It usually has a blue border to distingulish from replacement tile or prevent players from adding lines on the white tile to change it into different type of tile. In the original Chinese Majiong, the piece called "箭" (jiàn), represents archery, the red "中" represents a hit on the target. In ancient Chinese archery, one would put a red "中" to signify that the target was hit. White represents failure, green "發" means that one will release the draw.

Flower tiles: The last category and typically optional components to a set of mahjong tiles, often contain artwork on their tiles.The 4 tiles below are flower tiles that represent ume plum, orchid, chrysanthemum, and bamboo.

The 4 tiles of the below are seasonal tiles that represents spring, summer, autumn, and winter.

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i've been saying, that the day i quit the game, is when i get the above tiles. lol

c'mon! let's play! and i pray for more self touch! lol

my my my. a break for me to rest my brain. rest my brain from project. had a brief presentation with lecturer today. sian. still got alot to do.

til then, see you guys. =))