dumb

had a little talk with granny after dinner. i realised that grandpa fell down nearly a month ago. yet, i wasn't aware of it. i'm such a bloody unfilial grandson. why the hell didn't i even know about it. yes yes yes, grandpa went out alone and fell and he didn't tell anyone about it. but i could've notice something unusual about grandpa? i just feel like hammering myself. i'm a fcuking idiot.

grandpa had cuts on his right shin. he couldn't move his entire right arm for a week. when the pain gets unbearable, he asked grandma to bring him to the doc. and still, i wasn't aware of it. if i had known earlier, i would've drive them to see the doc. what a fcuking idiot i am.

things didn't went well for me recently. i had a dozen things on my mind that's kinda fooling around with my brain circuits. which kinda caused a emotional stir in me. i've been looking at the ppl around me. but i just can't understand why.

i came across this on a friend's blog.

when we wake up in the morning,
we have two choices.

go back to sleep and dream,
or wake up to chase those dreams.

choice is yours.

what do you think? =))

a day out playing jenga truth or dare (with modified rules) with some friends caught some of our darkest secret and many of our hilarious dares. i had fun tho i had a little scene earlier with a friend... but never mind, it's over. =))

anyway, the baby boy at my house is growing so clever now. whenever i say "ling, come sayang kor kor." and guess wat he'll do? he walk towards me, and kiss me on my lips! hahas. damn cute la. speaking of which, i did blogged about kisses previously. yes, there are a million dozens of meaning to each kiss. the thing is, how do we handle these reasonings. the approach to it, can be a confusing process for some. but to some, it can be sweet. =))

time to sleep. wake up and continue chasing my dreams. =))

til then, adios!