a night out with some buddies after training, was indeed enjoyable and fun. it all started with the desire for some little hip hop action, in which i sat there and watch the entire show, to traveling all the way to west coast for supper.
it was a great night, with the cool breeze and light traffic. it seems that the moon is fading, and the stars are losing its shine. or perhaps something is wrong with my appreciation for these supposedly beautiful mother nature. too much have happened recently. too many shit going through my life lately. and i simply refuse to talk about it cuz i just don't feel like it. ppl ask why am i so crazy all the time, cracking lame jokes and doing lame stuffs while smiling and laughing happily so naturally. but i do have my bad hair days, and i didn't expect them to be this worse this time.
call it running away from my foes of thoughts, but i simply don't have the courage to face what i'm feeling right now. i do have many great and wonderful friends around. whom they have their own share of problems. they talk about it all the time, and perhaps a problem shared is a problem halved. i thought by keeping myself busy with all my commitments would prolly distract me from all these. but instead, it turned itself into an ugly monster. i train hard, which resulted in my shoulder injury. i work hard, which resulted me not getting enough good sleep.
i wished i could hug an angel and cry my hearts out under its wings, but it's impossible. i just want to have fun, not getting reprimanded for the fun i'm having. if god would save the queen, why wouldn't he save me?
perhaps my buddies are right. i should probe into the pasts. that'll leave my questions answered. but i don't want to talk about it. at least for now.
we all search enthusiastically for romance. and indeed, this search ain't easy. but romance is like chocolates. some sweet, some bitter. however, in the context of chocolates alone, i love bitter chocolates. =) as the name suggests, my chemical romance ain't mixing well. this weird potion is turning my heads round and round and round.
i miss driving around late into the night. i miss the excitement in my life. i miss the surprises i get from life.
but i hate this fatigue i get from life.
it is often said that it takes 2 hands to clap. but it's also often said that there's 2 sides to a coin. at some point of time, a particular side will be over the other when it's flipped. it is tough to get an equal balance of both. which kinda suggest that some will give in more than the other.
no matter what crap i get from life, i did however, managed to appreciate a little about mother nature. sold some of my time at night safari in exchanged for monetary gains, gave me an opportunity to take free tram rides and watch free animal shows. of all the animals i've seen, i'm most in awe of the ones such as the rhino, hippo, elephants, tigers, lions. it is interesting to see how on earth did the creator manage to carve out such huge and wonderful animals. i told myself, if i'm rich one day, i'm gonna adopt the rhino, lions and tigers. i want the full grown elephants too! i love animals! and maybe one day, i might want to be a zoologist. it's true that one must be truthful to oneself, simply by doing the things you like. why work for a bank when your interest is in advertising?
life is weird. it is often hard to do the things we want. and i wonder what kind of lessons are we suppose to take out of it.
2 days to regatta. and i'm not sure if having this 3 weeks break is a good thing for me.
bring the colours of the moon and stars back to me can?
it was a great night, with the cool breeze and light traffic. it seems that the moon is fading, and the stars are losing its shine. or perhaps something is wrong with my appreciation for these supposedly beautiful mother nature. too much have happened recently. too many shit going through my life lately. and i simply refuse to talk about it cuz i just don't feel like it. ppl ask why am i so crazy all the time, cracking lame jokes and doing lame stuffs while smiling and laughing happily so naturally. but i do have my bad hair days, and i didn't expect them to be this worse this time.
call it running away from my foes of thoughts, but i simply don't have the courage to face what i'm feeling right now. i do have many great and wonderful friends around. whom they have their own share of problems. they talk about it all the time, and perhaps a problem shared is a problem halved. i thought by keeping myself busy with all my commitments would prolly distract me from all these. but instead, it turned itself into an ugly monster. i train hard, which resulted in my shoulder injury. i work hard, which resulted me not getting enough good sleep.
i wished i could hug an angel and cry my hearts out under its wings, but it's impossible. i just want to have fun, not getting reprimanded for the fun i'm having. if god would save the queen, why wouldn't he save me?
perhaps my buddies are right. i should probe into the pasts. that'll leave my questions answered. but i don't want to talk about it. at least for now.
we all search enthusiastically for romance. and indeed, this search ain't easy. but romance is like chocolates. some sweet, some bitter. however, in the context of chocolates alone, i love bitter chocolates. =) as the name suggests, my chemical romance ain't mixing well. this weird potion is turning my heads round and round and round.
i miss driving around late into the night. i miss the excitement in my life. i miss the surprises i get from life.
but i hate this fatigue i get from life.
it is often said that it takes 2 hands to clap. but it's also often said that there's 2 sides to a coin. at some point of time, a particular side will be over the other when it's flipped. it is tough to get an equal balance of both. which kinda suggest that some will give in more than the other.
no matter what crap i get from life, i did however, managed to appreciate a little about mother nature. sold some of my time at night safari in exchanged for monetary gains, gave me an opportunity to take free tram rides and watch free animal shows. of all the animals i've seen, i'm most in awe of the ones such as the rhino, hippo, elephants, tigers, lions. it is interesting to see how on earth did the creator manage to carve out such huge and wonderful animals. i told myself, if i'm rich one day, i'm gonna adopt the rhino, lions and tigers. i want the full grown elephants too! i love animals! and maybe one day, i might want to be a zoologist. it's true that one must be truthful to oneself, simply by doing the things you like. why work for a bank when your interest is in advertising?
life is weird. it is often hard to do the things we want. and i wonder what kind of lessons are we suppose to take out of it.
2 days to regatta. and i'm not sure if having this 3 weeks break is a good thing for me.
bring the colours of the moon and stars back to me can?
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