it's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere i go
but i'm doing it
it's hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and i'm alone
still harder
getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret
but i know if i could do it over
i would trade away all the words that i saved in my heart
that i left unspoken

there are days every now and again i pretend i'm okay. but that's not what gets me.

i miss everything. the things that no longer belong to the present.

ha