doctor

went viewing profiles, i stumbled across the first song above. quite nice. you might wanna pause my page default song and listen to this. yea. the second song suddenly appeared in my mind, so i decided to post it.

anyway, took mum to the doctor. she had a swollen foot. she didn't sprain her ankle or anything. the swell just appeared like that. doctor gave some antibiotics and painkillers. we'll see how for the next few days.

was talking to mum on the car. she asked me about my life. so i told her what i've been up to and what i'll be doing next blah blah blah. she threw the big bomb to me. she asked, i got a new girl already ah. hahahahas. no la.

a friend have been telling me about the way it is handled. every beginning must have an end. sometimes, the end is beautiful, sometimes forceful. no matter what the ending is, the ending must be proper. it's just like a death of someone. it must be done properly with a presentable funeral etc. you get what i mean. not to say who'd fault it is. there will always be a series of events that led everything into where it is today. with the series of events, we must know that some is not what we would anticipate, some is er done purposely or mistakes. but anyway, to make things short, all end must be beautiful and proper. not some childish outcome so to speak.

mum said only we know it ourselves what's good and bad for us. we're all given the choice to choose. if we choose to go the path we know it's wrong, we cannot blame anyone about its consequences. yes, occasionally, we all seek the joy and thrills of it. occasionally, things will be led from one place to another. we are given the choice to stop it from mutating further. the odds are however, very obvious that we will be curious to see how things evolve further. such curiosity could kill sometimes. whatever it is, we must not walk this journey with an evil heart. we came into this world pure and innocent, so we should leave this place the exactly the way we came here. life is not a place where ppl feel it's torturing. yes, inevitably, sometimes we do feel that like is dreadful. but know that life is suppose to be beautiful. afterall, it is only planet earth who can accommodate living creatures to live in.

lives are meant to be shared. it shouldn't be a lonesome life for a particular being. mum said we only have one life. there is actually no room for mistakes. sometimes, mistakes can leave scars behind. i looked at myself, only to be thankful that yes, i've my mistakes. but my mistakes are not big enough to leave a scar in me. =)) i'm glad.

the ironic thing is, farhan said, learn from our mistakes. and make the same mistakes again. hahas. what great ideology. =))